Since it is late and I need sleep I've decided to write about how I would rather not sleep and instead write and just to prove to myself that I can write and not worry about being perfectly clear and formatted. I think for me as time passes I read great books and hear good music eat good food; I become more aware of the mediocrity of other things. Mac and cheese is yummy and cheap, but if you eat at a really good restaurant it can loose it's appeal. Of course then you just wait a little bit until you're hungry with a lack of options in your cupboard and everything tastes good again.

Perhaps that's what's been going on with my writing, I just need to get a little hungrier.

If the world were ideal, all idealists would be realists.

Busy busy busy.
I'm trying to do less tinkering and more productive stuff. I did dishes for an hour tonight.
I'm tired.

It's been a long time since I've visited my old live journal page. I don't blog much anymore, which is sad in it's own way I suppose. I've gotten quite busy and the futility of writing for an imaginary audience has been overpowering any sense of accomplishment. For that matter I haven't been doing much writing at all what with work, kids, and other time consuming adult activities and responsibilities. If I think about it too much, it makes me sad.

It's been far to long since I have written. Miranda is due early January. That is all.

This Saturday I'm going to my high school reunion. It should prove rather interesting to see where all those people have ended up. Plus I'll get a chance to talk to my old friends and get addresses that I won't get around to writing, and phone numbers that I'll never call. Speaking of writing I keep meaning to sit down and write letters to some of my friends, just for the sake of doing it and letting them know that I haven't completely forgotten them, but between kids and work and plain laziness... lets just say no one should expect a letter anytime soon.

I've obviously been keeping quite busy lately. I probably should get more sleep too, but hopefully I can start posting more regularly on here again in the coming months.

I thought about taking a few precious moments of my nightly internet hour to vent about my lack of time and how my creative soul is being slowly eroded away by reality.

Instead I'd like to say I'm sorry to everyone I'm just too busy to communicate with anymore. I find myself ignoring people, not because I've stopped liking them, but simply because the clock keeps ticking and I have no time. Work, eat, sleep... or not sleep if I want to work on anything other than making a living.

I feel this is where lonely old men in nursing homes come from. I'm only 23 I shouldn't feel death creeping up behind me. It's a shame we don't live forever, for I have far too much to do.

It makes me sad.

I miss my friends...
If you're one of them, I'm sorry.

Since I'd rather not bore those that read my posts with the mundane details of my life I'm going to start posting recommendations of various websites, books, tools and so on.

Imprimis
http://www.hillsdale.edu/imprimis/

A monthly speech digest of Hillsdale College. You can subscribe to a free "hard copy" or simply read it online. Almost always a thought provoking experience. Enjoy.

We've recently reconnected to the internet world.
It's nice to have information at my fingertips again.

Although now I have even less time to spend then before I worked at Roundy's. Oh well, we'll have to change that someday.

I single handedly managed to get the LJ staff to add these schools to the schools listing:

Bethany Lutheran College - Mankato, MN
Fox Valley Lutheran High School - Appleton, WI

So all my fellow classmates you better get yourselves to:
http://www.livejournal.com/schools/

And add your educational history to your user profile so we may begin our plans for world domination!

Don't forget to visit my "new and improved" OFFICIAL blog over at http://treesurfing.blogsome.com/


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That is all.

Ok I can't hide it any longer. I've set up another blog that is much more pretty and organized. It's still being built so don't be surprised if some links are missing yet. It's my new pet project (aka What I do instead of something truly useful.)

http://treesurfing.blogsome.com/

I'm not abandoning Live Journal, but I needed someplace a little more "serious" for some of my stuff. This site has turned into too much of a What I did today journal. Tell me what you think.

Here's an article that questions the common assumptions about college.

http://headrush.typepad.com/creating_passionate_users/2005/07/does_college_ma.html
and the follow up,
http://headrush.typepad.com/creating_passionate_users/2005/07/college_matters.html

It actually makes me almost glad that I didn't stick around for a BA in Debt Management... Because I still have no clue what I actually want to do. Well I have a clue but I'm still trying to figure out how to swing it...

Goodwill rocks.  I still need to build my book warehouse.
Also: We went to Appleton to visit with an awesome old high school friend.  It was a blast.  We did the eat, talk, shop thing: I know I'm getting old...

Aubree (aka Tess, I'm still not used to that yet) also gave us some nifty CD's of various music that she likes.  (Unlike me, she has mastered the burning CD function on her computer quite well.) I'm personally a big fan of the Electronica music one.  We have similar tastes in that area. 

Miranda and her seemed to get along quite well too, which made me very happy.  Female friends seem to make Miranda jealous sometimes, but apparently they have quite a bit in common.  Went to Barnes and Nobel and I window shopped a bunch of new books for my wish list.  Then we went to Goodwill where I hit another gold mine of books that I don't really need, but must have.  Not quite as good as our last visit, but still a nice haul.  Rounding the day out with a visit to a tasty ice cream shop.  Rock!

I still don't know what's going on.  What direction our lives should take.  More young confusion.  Maybe I'll suddenly mature or have a great inspiration.  Heck I'd take some divine intervention any day.  Every time I think I know what we're going to do something else comes up.  A new idea, another person's opinion, a bout of apathy or boredom, an especially bad day at work, a sudden irrational fear of change...

So that's, in part, an explanation for my silence as of late.  I didn't want to bombard you all with posts of vague confusion.

We went swimming today at a nice park in town today. It was nice, I even talked Miranda into swimming for a while. Then we went to Goodwill and ended up with a shopping cart full of books. Those of you who have been paying attention, you know my great affection for half.com and low priced books in general. I hit the mother load today. Wow!

One day I will have to build a warehouse in the backyard of my future home to house my personal library. When I die my dependents will hate be because my house will be filled with books. Which is sad. The whole "You can't take it with you when you go." never bothered me before, now I think about a lifetime of books that will probably make their way back to Goodwill when I die. Then some other bibliophile will hit upon another mother load. It's almost like reincarnation, a literary reincarnation if you will... hmm makes me want to leave cryptic notes in all my books just so some poor fool will be scratching his head after I pass on. "The blue rhinoceross arrives at dawn."

I'm taking a break from layout work this week. It's giving me a headache. I've also been spending some time working on my novel. You know the one that I've been "working" on for several years. Yeah, it will get done someday. In a few years I'll need some copy editors and proofreaders... any volunteers?

This layout code is kicking my butt! Perhaps if I stare at it long enough every night and keep trying to tinker with things it will eventually compile correctly...

It's as good a theory as any, not that I have much of a choice until Saturday when I'll get a decent chunk of time to work on it.

Ok I'm going to be doing a lot of reading and tinkering with my LJ layout this week. If I don't post for a while you know why. Nothing too exciting happening, just the usual work, eat, sleep, worry, schedule.

I don't have the skills for LJ Layout tinkering apparently.
Thanks to those who pointed out the display issues.

Went to a family reunion today and now I'm beat. I might just go take a nap for a bit because I have to work tomorrow and Miranda really wants to go see fireworks tonight... Ok I kinda do to.